I do forget how to live sometimes

2006-10-24T19:23:00.000+08:00

THE THOUGHT OF YOU SICKENS ME.

THE THINGS THAT YOU DO TURN MY INSIDES ROTTEN
SO DONT WASTE MY TIME,

I GOT A LIFE DAMMIT.

2006-10-22T13:11:00.000+08:00

Aww mann... feeling sick again! damn haze la... anyway, yesterday went visiting... haha $$. No la im not so greedy . So, had to wake up at 7:30 am, but guess wad? no one else woke up! they only woke up at lyk 8? so we only left the hse at ard 10:30 am. First we went to my Greatgrandma's hse... met Jhansi and Div thr. Aunty Yogini made chocolate coconut candy! haha YUM! seriously, i think each of us had lyk 5 pieces each? haha. Then we went to my dad's uncles hse. U noe wad? my cousin Gauri looks EXACTLY lyk sut? haha but SHE is super cute, not sut.. he's jus a nit wit. When we came in rite, she was lyk, "I GOT TO SHE LEVINA FIRST!" damn cute la! she was talking to her sister Gayathri... Gauri is 4 and Gaya is 6. ok, moving on, went to a few other hses, but thr was no one my age or ppl hu wud talk to me... then went to Suts hse for lunch. haha His parents FINALLY got to meet my parents la! aft lyk 3 yrs? haha. At ard 4 smth we went to uncle Buthmen's place.. he got a new dog! I dunno wad breed it is la, but its damn adorable, its PURE white and her name is Baby. I told him tt Baby was such a common name, n he was lyk, im a common man. Yea rite la! hes an ex-gangster and he rides horses... how weird is tt? Then at night, we rushed down to SRT to catch Anands play, its called Horse-face. It was this indian based drama abt these two men and a woman. Anand was Kapila (one of the men) and guess who played the woman? ZOE!!!! haha i got a shock when i saw her come on stage! the play was rated "NC-16" cause of sexual references... wth? i was jus a kissing scene? hello? oh yea but it was really weird cause Anand kissed zoe. My cousin kissed a woman, whom i know, who also happens to be nearly 2times his age! haha then aft the play i called him and told him i knew zoe... n he was lyk, " r u serious? wasn't it weird wen u watched the play?" haha he meant the kissing scene... oh well. Wen i got home, i kinda remembered tt i was sick and i threw up lyk 3 times? damn disgusting la... ok, gtg.... bb!

2006-10-14T12:41:00.000+08:00

OMG! im so happy! gtg c OVERDRIVE! hahah, the dancers were pretty good, but of course WADE was even better! haha it was totally awesome! wade only danced twice, he put e sexy in justine timberlakes "sexy back" haha. Im telling you, yesterday was really great mann.... ok, let me start frm e beginning, i was supposed to meet crys at taka, but i got lost!i ended up in wisma, so i had to walk down to taka frm thr. I meet a few of crys friens, then both of us wen down to grab smth to eat b4 heading off to e esplanade. We got thr early so we walked ard for sometime... looking at jewelery and some other stuff i cant really rmb... then we went to e concert hall to get our seats... haha du u noe it wad e first time Esplanade presents allowed hip hop in the concert hall? we all have Wade to thank for tt! haha so then OVERDRIVE 2006 started! haha. Sheik Hikal was the mc (dunno how to spell his name) haha. He was so dileriously funny! it was almost exactly lyk The Wade Robson Project... but it was great! haha. The only irritatin part was that the people who deserved to win, did not! yea... then aft tt, crys and i wanted to get smth to eat, to we went to Bradell, Macs and ate thr. It was jus our luck tt a "fight" broke out rite nex to us la! this guy hu claimed to be testing a new lens he got was taking pics and he took a pic of this guy and his kid. so e guy got angry and started shouting, n crys n i were stuck at Macs! haha i only got home at bout 1+ am? yea, dev stayed up to open e door fer me! (how sweet!) OH! n this disgusting guy followed crys n i home! frm Bradell all the way to crys house! ugh! anyway, gtg. Im damn bored at home! Bye!

2006-10-12T11:46:00.000+08:00

Damn tired aft yesterday.... ok, let me start. In the morning my my brother and i followed my mum shopping, BUT we din noe tt she was also meeting up wit aunty Michelle and her kids AND i totally hate CHLOE to bits and peices! she is so freaking fat( i get to say this, cause she IS bigger than me!, not saying tt im also small size la..) and she was wearing a TIGHT, SHORT and AWFULLY FRILLY mini skirt! YUCK! anyway, i jus talked to Nicole and hung out wit her. We went to Paragon, and jus walked ard Marks and Spencers, then Dev, Nicole, Markcus and i went to delifrance cause we din wanna follow my mum and aunty Michelle ard, but obviously dear Chloe had to follow her mummy ard. oh, n i jus found out tt Markcus and Nicole are twins! so cool rite? at first i din believe them then, they showed me their ezlink cards. AND, Nicole and i are taller than Markcus!hahaha. I hope Chloe fails her 'o' levels this year.
Then aft tt, mum brought us home, to rest. Then, we went to Geylang Serai. To do sumore shopping. I got pretty pissed cause my mum din buy ANYTHING for me, and e worst part was, I WAS CARRYING THE FREAKING BAGS! they decided to put everything into my bag, n nothing was mine! in the end, i only had 1 belt, 3 pairs of socks and a few buttons which i duno y i bought.... anyway. im still tired frm yesterday.... my foot still hurts cause some stoopid bitch pushed a pram over my feet. ok, i gtg, dad wants to use the com..... BYE!

2006-10-10T22:00:00.000+08:00

YAY! finally posting, aft how long? haha oh well, had a great time following crys ard shopping. haha, but yesterday was better than today. We watched John Tucker Must Die... i loved it! but dun trust my judgement, i may be rong, cause i havn't watched a movie in 4 mths! 1st time in 4mths watching a movie, how sad rite? haha Exams r also FINALLY over... trying to hav a great time b4 results! ARGH!!!!! hahaha oh well. im so tired, tmr i got to follow my mum .... for more shopping... OH tt reminds me, i got a manicure today... i noe i told crys i wud nvr get a mani, but she proved me wrong! haha .... Oh n im telling everyone, Dreams can come true as long as u believe in urself. Never give up on tt dream, because its hope for the future. It shows that you want to be a sumbody when you grow up... EVERYBODY has to keep that in mind.

You chose to throw it all away, i was stupid enough to think that you would come after me. i swore never to turn back, but now i have my doubts. When a boy gets him new toys, his old ones are left to rot. You broke my heart and left me to die. I only wish i knew how to mend our friendship, i wish i could turn back time. I wasted my time on you, and now i hate you. i wish i never knew you. Always so preoccupied and ravishing abt HER. u noe wad? i dont care anymore, you can take her and leave, get the fuck out of my sight.

2006-09-19T16:55:00.000+08:00

I feel so UNAPRECIATED. Ppl jus dunno how to say thank you when you do them a favour, they dont know how much i haf done for them, out of love, and then when i make an innocent mistake they pounce at me or ignore me. Being ard them is lyk having to walk on thin ice. I have to watch my actions so tt i dont offend them.... i cant show how i really am ard them cause they dont like it..... but i tolerate it because i love them and i cant live with without our relationships with each other. Everyday, i wonder what it would be lyk without them. Live is much better without them! but i love them to much to cut our ties. But, i know i can nvr change you, i jus haf to live with how you are. See? im sacrificing my happiness for yours, cause i noe tt your nth without me. Thats the power of love.....

2006-08-21T20:46:00.001+08:00

Looking at her already screams slut! i hope she has a horrible break up wit him.... he'll leave her fer another girl or smth.... then se becomes depressed and suicidal! think you'll get everything you want huh? go to hell bitch!

2006-08-21T16:31:00.000+08:00

haha, ELLO! today im damn tired..... whr du i start.... HISTORY CA2...... 12/15! TTS 80% WHOO! the best result so far.... pfth... haha. tmr we r getting lit..... FUCK!!!! so nervous! ok: CRYS EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE OK! IM THR FER YOU ALWAYS! CAUSE YOU WERE THR FER ME WEN I NEEDED YOU! life is difficult! but its fun when ur friends stick by yoU! ....... our class went to battle today! omg.... _____(1)______ provoked _____(2)_____ and _______(2)________ lashed out at
_____(1)_____..... happened twice..... CHILL PPL! WE ONLY HAF TILL E END OF THE YEAR! yuck i jus sneezedinto the fan and my spit splatted over me.... im gtg bathe.... BB! oh and CRYS DIN COME TO SCH TODAY! :(((

2006-08-20T13:00:00.000+08:00

ok... the post is gonna be short.... um, got back math results..... haven't told my mum bout them yet.... i did really bad.... i mean REALLY REALLY bad.... thank god i actually passed. I got 28 1/2 over 50..... which is lyk, 57%.... which really sucks. but, im really greatful for crys... she cheered me up a little jus b4 i started crying :) but the marks really made me feel sucky... i feel srry fer her cause she was so close to A2, which is already fucking good la! haha. yea, thanks alot crys, U ACTUALLY CAN BE NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!! then, later during LD, Mr Armstrong really pissed me off! i think he has smth against me.... wth? Amanda too! wen he was scolding everyone, he kept making eye contact with me and amanda! wtf?!?! he was really OBVIOUSLY targetting us..... irritating....OH YESS! if anyone has seen a BLACK file, pls tell me! i lost my file!and my mum has already told me that if i dun get it back im sooooo screwed! plsplsplspls! AMANDA IS SUCH A SWEET HEART! aft ld, i wen arnd looking fer my file... even tho amanda was really tired, she followed me EVERYWHR i wen, n helped me look for it! she said tt it was not safe for me to go alone.... damn nice la! and AFT TT, she even followed me to central to have an early dinner.... all those ppl hu dun lyk her, or say bad stuff bout her are all FUCKING LOSERS! u guys are so fucking dumb mann.... wait till u get into deep shit... see wad happens to u...

2006-08-16T18:51:00.000+08:00

HELLO PPL! ok, today wasn't as bad as yesterday... the science paper was not difficult! it was pretty ok i guess.. haha but i already lost 4 marks :( , the stoopid thermometer question la.... urghh. anyway, OH my tamil marks......... Project :10/20 (late work) Paper: 39/80 (FAIL!) Total: 49/100!!!!!!!!!!! but my tamil teacher says she will give me the 1 mark to pass :) im planning to NOT fail any subs this term..... doubt it, but thats my plan so far. at least now i noe i one haf 1 sub to fail, HISTORY, my worst sub besides tamil.... tmr, thrs one last paper---- DNT theory paper summore.... haf to study fer it... wth. Oh, comming back to today. It was ok la. I NEED TO GO BUY A NEW BELT! urgh. anyway um, i sorta felt left out today but sum ppl. i dunno haw to explain it, but wen u r walking nex to someone... this other person cuts in between u and totally cuts u off? i mean, how rude is tt? u cant get any worse can u ? i mean, im still thr, im still a human being, and i take up space (lots of it). lately, the (person im talking bout) has been acting diffrently. i mean, she's trying to act cool? but i have ABSOLUTLY NOTHING against her, its jus tt, shes not treating me same anymore and it hurts me.... alot, cause she used to be really close to me. ok, um tts bout it.

"everybody's changing and i dont feel the same"

2006-08-15T18:41:00.000+08:00

HEY!the math exam was really lousy.... seriously. I din have enough time to finish the paper! so i lost lyk 3 marks cause of tt! then, i din noe how to do 3 -4 of the graph sums! so crappy! omg... i screwed up my exams! urgh! comming back to maths... the paper was preety tough actually... i dunno wad im gonna du! oh, and i could not concentrate cause the rain made the room cold,hence making my stomach cold... and i had seriously irritating cramps! it was a total nightmare... i dunno how la... i already failed tamil, i could not finish lit, history was a flop, cause i din noe my work, and now, maths... i bet u tmr im gona screw up my science!... overall, i have really under performed this year, and it just seems to be getting worse... i only have one more chance to prove to my teachers and family members that i have what it takes! pls pray tt i will do well im my next 2 exams! uhhhhhhhhhhh! need all the help i can get... if u cant help me then fine... I NEED TO DO WELL! im going crazy................................................................................
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its unbelievalbe.

2006-07-27T22:53:00.000+08:00

HEY! HOPE YOU LYK THE NEW SKIN!

2006-07-27T22:49:00.000+08:00

HEY GUYS! haha wads up? long time nvr blog... hhhhhhhuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmmmmsssss?? SO? lyk my new blogskin? hahaha ok i dunno y im being such an asshole now. Ok Hope u lyk the blog! bb!

2006-06-24T12:16:00.000+08:00

HEY! hahaha, oh well... yesterday, decided not to get the shoes, but i got something just as good! a swatch watch! yea haha, its really plain, but i chose it cause of the face... :) so nice, then, my aunt gave me a bag tt she previosly picked, and bought b4 we met up. i kinda looks like crys bag, but it TOTALLY diffrent... its kinda old-womanish looking, but i still LOVE IT! haha, dun think i will b carrying it, but still. Another aunt of mine, is gonna give me cash to ga buy the converse shoes! im so happy... i think im gonna buy 2 pairs... depending on wth i got other stuff i wanna buy.. hehe... Oh yes... CRYSTAL, CHERRYL, NATALIE, JHANSI, DIVYA... u gals r cordially invited to my bday party at sentosa... Its on the 2nd of july during the youth holiday long weekend. Thr r a few other guys comming. 5 of em... 2 of them u shd noe by now.... AND tell ur parents tt my mum is going to be thr, and we haf checked wit the sentosa officials n they say tt thr will be 2 lifeguards on duty tt day at siloso beach.. OK? n those bring along cash k? cause we might be eating thr, bring bout $20? its lot, but still. N IM GOING TO KAYAK!!!! HU WANTS TO GO WIT ME???? haha ok, if no 1 does, i will go wit dev, or divya... yupp... hehe! BB!

2006-06-21T18:17:00.000+08:00

HEY! long time nvr blog... hahaha... oh wells. Today wen out wit crys. :))) we met up at like 9:30am n wen to Macs fer breakfast. Then we studied thr till 12 round thr. Aft tt we took a train to J8. We walked ard... bought Mrs. Fields cookies (which were De-licious!) and walked ard some more. Haha, then later i followed cry to go haf lunch, then we went to walk ard again. :D. haha ok. We went to ice lemon tee, n crys got a flower thingy fer her bag.. duno wad it is also but it was nice. Later we went to Converse boutique. I wanted to check out the High-cut Converse, then i tried one pair on... its really really cool. im gonna go get it when i go out wit my aunt on friday... yupps! hehe. its damn cheap la! ok, maybe not DAMN cheap, but quite cheap is more like it, $55.90. haha, i really want it! anyway, if my aunt dosent get it, my mum will buy it for me. Im getting a Zen Creative neeon for my bday. YES I AM VERY GREATFUL! I WILL LOVE MY PRESENT, but at first my mum wanted to get me the Zen Creative Vedio... but, my fucked up results caused the degrade.... fuck. Oh well, i screwed it up, as usual... anyway. Getting on with my day. We checked out the bags n wallets at converse n stuff. it was really cool, but DAMN expensive! haha,ok. Later we walked ard some more, then took the train back to TP, n walked home together. once i reached home, i watched tv, then went to go get ready fer school. My mum drove me cause it was fucking hot in the afternoon. Wen i reached, thr were no grp c-ers except, me, cas, Mangai and Nurul. So i called Thara up, n guess wad? we din haf to go fer LD... wtf rite? go all the way thr fer nothing.... then my mum came back to pick me up :)))) thx mum! haha. Now, im sitting here typing this out haha. Oh well, gtg now... hehe BYE!

2006-06-09T15:15:00.000+08:00

Hey wads up lately? i dun haf much to talk bout but, yea decided to post anyway. later ill try to upload the pic of my shoes.. ok, well, oh yes... my mum fractured her pinky toe last night! n she is sooo stubborn noe? she refused to go fer an x-ray. Oh n bout last night, i went fer karate. It was ok la. anyway. I meet 2 girls frm beatty. THEY BOTH NOE JHANSI!!! yea! haha. So nice rite? one is in sec 2 :) the other is in Sec 4. The one in sec 2 is Jessica, i cant rmb the other one. yupp. My dad came to pick me n dev up late. u noe y? he locked the car keys in the car!!! Wtf rite? this is wad happened.. he wanted to drop off a cheque at the dbs bank along balestier. so he stopped the car, left the car running, left the car door slightly open. Ok Stupid factor #1.Car is STILL running. Stupid factor #2. The door was OPEN. ok then he runs up to bank n drops off the cheque. When he comes down. The door has been shut, n auto locked... -_-... so expected. Stupid factor #3. My dads fone is at home. anyway. some how my mum manages to DRIVE down to balestier road in my grandma's car, pass the key to my dad. N my dad come so pick us up 1h 15mins late... hahaha but it was fun while we were waiting fer my dad. Lindon n Trinity were training fer the competition, n i was thr to laugh wen they made a mistake.. :))) hahaha ok i noe im mean. Oh well. ok im going to try to upload the pic now... oh ok.. it ended up ontop... hehe

2006-06-07T20:54:00.000+08:00

OMG! today was like the best day ever! haha... no la, not really but still, i had fun :) in the morning, i woke up at like, 7:30 am? yea n then my mum had to drop dev off at sch, n then drop me off a SKA. i was sleeping in the car! hehe, anyway, when i reach ska... n guess hu i saw... suba. i was DAMN DAMN irritated... so i just went upstairs and played X-box.. :D haha. ok. I was playing Jun How's need fer speed... haha srry jun! anyway, i stayed there till like 12? so cindy decided to take me fer lunch. (tts wen u msg me crys! then one tt i said "shit la... k" haha) i left like 1:30... haha. ok, Cindy called mum, n u noe? my mum said she felt srry fer me, n decided to take me to taka fer lunch... dev was wit her tho... BUT i still wen to Pepper Lunch fer lunch.. haha YUM! i really like the food thr... THANKS CRYS! ya haha. anyway, dev wen to meet up wit his frens, n mum wen shoppin wit me. she ONLY bought like stuff fer me? N we spent a total of like $380... JUST on me! hehe... oops.... any way, the clothes were cheap cause of the sale most of wad my mum bought was accesories, (if tt is how u spell it?) n the rest clothes... which was like only 5 pieces? 3 bottoms, n 2 tops... haha! OH! n how can i forget? the SHOES! only one pair.. but i totally totally love them! haha yup. Cloth wedge heel, n LIME GREEN straps!!! i really love them, n i DUN care wad u say bout them! im going to upload pics later... only of clothes n the SHOES! haha. I had sushi too! wen we were leaving, my mum wanted to buy back some tea, so she asked me wad i wanted, n i got SUSHI! yay! i got hooked cause of crystal la! hahaha... but even b4 i knew her i had already fallen in love with it... then she came along n rekindled the flickering flame! haha, sounds so drama..

Oh yesterday was just as good as today! i meet with crys at orchard MRT station, then both of us wen to the library to study.. c we r go good rite? go sudy during the hols! hmppph! yah, i had OREO CHEESECAKE, n cookies n cream milkshake YUM!!! haha. later we went round taka, n guess hu we bumped into? Natasha n steph kum... haha, later we went to Pepper Lunch, i was my very first time thr! n the food was great. But not as good as it was fer me than it was fer her... im srry crys... u noe y rite? oh wells.. then we went down to e club.. i tot my dad was comming, in the end he din turn up! he came later la.. but still. Wen we wen back to TP, crys wanted to walk back by herself, but i was a bit unsure, cause i noe alot of creeps walk around tt area... unsafe, so i walked wit her... then later on aft i cross the overhead bridge, i suddenly felt dizzy, so i just quickly went to my block, cause they'r havin a funeral in the nex block void deck... but im ok now.. i think it was bit of breathing problem... i dun take in enuff air at one time, so i become dizzy. Mum jus only called the doctor.. haha yea. but im fine now... NO WORRIES! ok..

2006-06-04T21:50:00.000+08:00

haha! i had fun at the party! that was like on the 30th??? yea.... dev has sooo many CUTE frens ok? but its so sad, im not crushing on any of them.... oh wells.... hahaha. OKok, u noe wad? b4 the party, div n i wen to crys hse... WE WEN TO THE SAUNAA!! haha... then aft we bathed n everything, we went to taka... i was in a fuckin skirt fer goodness sake! n HEELS! i got a bloody... literally bloody blister and yea, i wen round the pub BARE FOOT! yikes... anyway... we bought devs cake thr... OREO CHEESECAKE!!!!! YUM YUM! u noe wad? tt day at the airport, i realised tt crys also likes oreo cheesecake! yah... i really din noe... but i haf always loved oreo cheesecake! haha ... anyway, we GUARDED the cake wit our LIVES on the train hahahaha! we finally reached the staation n met up wit cherrly!!! HEHEHE! yah... then we went to CARNAVAL!!! hehe yeahhh. Then nat came.... Angel got the shock of hewr life wen she heard nat speak... SOOOOO LOUD! hahaha alot of devs frens were LATE!!!! yes! LATE! anyway... there was pizza and stuff whoo! OHOH! CALAMARI ringss!! hahahahaa okok . im crazy. ok, anyway.. the girls were like all dancing in the coridor, guess wad? the guys were like peeping at us frm the inside!!! OMG rite! yea, they were playing darts... okok altogether, we had a really good time!

Oh yesterday i went fer dance nite... it was sooo cooll, i loved the hip hop, paint the town orange n the breakdancing... sooooo coool! yea... dev met a few of his frens... yea... it was really fun la.. went wit nat, dev n jing... hehe, ok... i gtg... damn bored actually... haha CYA!

2006-05-29T11:47:00.000+08:00

oh man.... been such a freaking long time since i last posted! so busy wif the club preparations... but im telling u its not going to be very nice tmr.... everything i so.... BLAH! nothing exciting! i mean... yea, there r only like 3 main games, But e first prize is damn cool.. there will be points system... yea. I think that everone is gonna haf lotsa fun... except me.... :( tmr is also parent-teacher meeting.... im so fucking screwed.... im gonna die... mum has to c 3 FREAKING teachers! ms Ratulangi,(form teacher), Mrs Wong (math), Mdm Saras (tamil). im so screwed.... anyway, i've been going daown to the club EVERYDAY.... tired man! the best was wen we wen wit sut! ahahahahaha! we had to run fer e mid-night train! hahahahah it was so freakin funny! hahaha then we had to walk home frm tp cause no more bus service... Ladida.... damn bored.. oh yea, yesterday dad gave me this huge scolding abt integrity... cause i've been missing karate fer like the WHOLE month and stuff... yea.. oh well... i gtg im DAMN tired now... dunno y, but yea.. CYA!

2006-05-18T17:24:00.000+08:00

Wad a day man... so DIVERSE... oh well, wat can i say. Why the hell r ppl so fucking sensative about other ppl copying them? i dun get it? by the slip of my tounge i said something that was supposed to be someone elses "common line". WTF??? its just words fer goodness sake?!?! anyway... that was tt... n that person is HERR... if u noe wad i mean.. haha. i really screwed up la, i failed hist. and tamil... wtf... infact the 1st time i failed any paper! Eng was my USUAL mark.. and then thr is geog, but it was expected of me... wen i told my dad he was like... "so?" cause everyone in my family duz geog... aiya i duun blame them la... at least i din get screwed fer the other papers... oh yes and fer my eng rite? wad pulled me down was my summary... wth rite? i got to study harder fer CA2 and SA2 also... everything starts NOW... hahaha Oh and tamil, i failed e main paper and composition component... so in the end, i failed the whole paper... yup. My mum laughed wen i told her, so... it din go as bad as i expected... :) im glad that its over with, nex i got MATH.... SCIENCE and LITERATURE papers to check... uhhhhh! so irritating. Im totally NOT expecting good marks fer math... i think that i cocked up fer tt one... and sci i dunno wad to expect.. lit im expecting average marks... im MOSTLY worried bout science... oh well, wad can i say huh? i suck at exams and work and everything else tt i do. yah and i put away my karate trophies... i hate them, i hate karate... i dun ever want to do it again in my entire life time... my dad says that it can help me in a sticky situatuion. PLZ! tell me wad kind of situation.. rape? ha, like hu wud want to? it just a load of BULLSHIT! anyway haven't gone in 3 weeks fer training.. mr wong is gonna kill me. Literally, by making me do extra EVERYTHING... that woud include EXTRA 4o min running! i cant even do 40 min, and he wants me to do 80? im a fucking dead jackass now...

Ahh.. nth to do nth to do... actually im taking a break frm making the wire hangers fer e stoopid x-country crap games... blah blah blah Bitch bitch bitch, yeah. my hands hurt, and guess wad? i've done ONLY 3 so far... uh huh... ok, i think i better get back to work!

"Your my past, my future......

my 6 in the moring when the clock rings

when i open my eyes to a new day

your my ups, my downs

my laughter and frowns"

--to all who are always there fer me

2006-05-17T20:05:00.000+08:00

Hey! omg today was damn exausting! in the morning, we went to the dance studio fer some stoopid talk on some internet thing, no one was listening at all la! then aft that Crys, fran and i had to go see ms Teo bout the x-country games thingy... yea, Kimberley and Eeeva din come... lucky... hahaha so kerlene had to sit in kims place, poor thing man... pity her. Then aft that went back to class to start planning was games we were going to choose and the dance formations and stuff... yea, nat and i had to run to ms teo to get dimentions fer the net thingys... yea... Then we planned out how to play the game and stuff... haha. Quite fun but pretty frustrating cause so ppl wernt helping... later on we planned to do the mass dance, we all got our positions ready and everything.. IM IN THE SAME GROUP AS NAT!!! pity not same as crys also... :( but shes happy where she is... i hope?? Aft sch i had to go up and down the staris wit ms teo's secetary to get the games room key... wtf.. so irriating, but the secetary is really nice la.. haha. Yup... nex i wen to HDB hub wit crys to go get her dance costume... we got her tops frm pepper plus and then we wen to mustafas to get her pants. TOTAL waste of time... i lost my way half way and then we ended up walking fer dunno haw long.. ended up taking a bloody taxi, which was such a short ride away... oh well. i dunno y but i wasnt really myself actually. i was sort of in a state of sleep actually... so ok, we got there and guess wad? we din get any pants. got all the way thr fer nothing. Waste my time only. then i wen to the bus stop wit crys.. then walked to tuition.. i spent haf my time there sleeping la! then once we started work, my teacher cud tell i wasn't in the mood and she let me go home early :))))) hah. OH! Aaron came in first fer St.Pats sec 1 x-country run! CONGRADS AARON!!! haha, yah so i came home, and now im sittting here typing this crap out... ;) hehe. oh well im tired, i dunno y also... seems like my day was so short. but still. oh and this certain some1 suddenly called me today.. i dunno wad to do, he asked me something very unexpected...made me kinda like upset.. dun wanna talk abt it... ok dev's here so i gtg.. he'll be asking to use to com soon.. yea bye.

2006-05-16T21:00:00.000+08:00

im sooo tired now... need to go haf a bath later, so ill du this quickly... haha yesterday i followed crys to SS (sports school), i was kinda impressed by the place.. pretty cool actually. yea. Wen i went there rite, i had this wierd feeling,dunno how to explain also... like as if i know this place, i felt comfortable there... dunno y, i have NEVER been there before... i wanted to actually study there when i first heard abt it. I mean, i qualify fer the sch tho i dun really go fer competitions all that often... but still i wanted to go thr, until wad crys told me bout tt place... anyway, she showed me around the sch, and what REAL home-rooms look like... yea, i haf to agree thier home-rooms are very nice and thier budget is the same or a bit more than our sch budget... y cant IJ put up nice home-rooms??? i dun understand? AND the teachers there are SO bloody NICE! its unbelievable! they talk very freely to their teachers and stuff.. its just really cool, anyone would be blessed to haf teachers like that... i wish...oh well...
Today din go all that well, but fun la... went to sch wit crys as usual, her leg was numb again... poor thing she almost cud not walk up the stairs... its horrible to haf sports injuries. iIm serious, it may seem like i dun usually go fer karate but i du.. jus tt lately i haf not la, but i still go fer karate very often. and im telling you, wen we train hard-contact, u get bruises that are actually VISABLE on MY SKIN! u actually c BLUE-BLACK on MY skin!!! wtf... anyhow, it duzzen really matter. Crys if feeling down again :( thr r alot of problems in life, face them, but u dun haf to du it alone, get all the help u NEED... :))) thats y there r ppl like ME thr fer u crys... thats wad frens r for rite? i may haf really got on ur nerves these past few days, (i admit ok?) and even pissed u off, but it was all unintentional alrite?? i din mean to make u angry, too tell u the truth, im angry most of the time, but i noe how to control and hide it tts y u dun really c it du u? haha well, im like tt, i dun like to show my feelings... its all bout e body langugae yea? hahaha. OH YES!!! bout today, we had that stoopid General Leadership crap again.. the only fun part was the human tangle! hahaha yeah... that was fun, then aft that constance tried to give me a wedgie, the reason y my underwear was so high was cause it kept slipping down, and i got so fed up i just pulled it up all the way.. ok?!?!?! THE WEDGIE DIN WORK!!! HAHAHAHAHA! well, yea... im getting bored... and in tired cause i went to the gym... 30min run, then sit-ups and bridging, then lastly asst. pull ups and dips... nearly died.. haha ... but then... guess wad?? i went SWIMMING!!!!! i LOVE swimming, i really do... dad made me practice butterfly stroke ...-_-... wen i tell ppl that i used to du competative swimmin, y dun they believe me? i USED to... now i do karate.. y is it so hard to believe? oh.. ok i noe, oh well... anyway, aftwards, dev and i played 1 game of pool.. haha damn fun! (i won) i was already winning, when dev shot in the 8 ball.. hehe, i cud tell he din play properly, cause he let me play the whole game "ball-in-hand".... did i ever say that Glenn is a competative pool player??? yea, he taught me last year how to play, then lisa and Fathi gave me tips on saturday night :) yea, ahhhh... im so tired, oh and btw im not taking part in the sch cross-country games... i really cannot take this stoopid asthma, last year was my arm, this year is asthma... sigh... im tired... ill go search fer the game thingy... BB!

2006-05-14T12:23:00.000+08:00

Oh man.. haven't posted in a long long time! yea... yesterday was THE most broring day... urgh. Spent the whole morning at dads pub doing nothing! the Brazillian embassy ppl came down and i had to be there. Guess wad? i was stuck in the backroom wit 2 small KIDS hu insisted on watching looney tunes.. not all that bad actually. Lisa, is 4 and Terry is 3... Glenns kids.. haha. DAMN cute, but SUPER hyper. yea.. AND my DEAR brother had to tell my mum that i was not going fer tuition! mum called me and GROUNDED me! then i cudn't go out with crys... :( oh wells... cant do anything bout it rite??

WOO HOO!!! haha last paper was on thursday... now just gotta sit tight fer the results.. wtf... im super screwed... i din even study and my tamil teacher ALREADY told me tt i failed my compo paper! what the HELL! im so annoyed by that actually... anyway. On thursday, aft the paper, i wen to crys hse! with crystal fong too! yea... so damn fun! we went swimming and both crys were tanning.. (eww) haha srry.. but we spent most of the time in the pool jus talking!! yea i was really fun actually. Then we spent like 20 mins to 30 mins in the sauna. Kept calling the CRYSTALSSS cave-women, cause they kept leaving the sauna door open and letting the cold air in! so ANNOYING! hahah after that crys and i wen to toa payoh to cut hair.. then i followed crys to get her FRENCH MANICURE.. haha fun to watch actually, but i got pretty bored after some time... we were supposed to go to Far East, but in the end decided not too... spent the whole day in toa payoh, in the end i bought black eye-liner for likr $10 and on some herbal drink fer my mum... hehe, so nice rite? yea, then jus b4 we went back i bumped into my uncle outside cheers... haha then wen i was walking up the over-head i bumped into him again... my mums step-bro.. the BESTEST uncle ever! haha he alwasy buys dvds fer me... yea! haha ok, i gtg, haf to go fer TUITION! after all the exams... oh well...

2006-05-05T22:12:00.000+08:00

HELLO! hahaha guess wad?? ITS DEV'S BIRTHDAY!!! WHOOPEE! hahahaha, today was a REALLY great! the tamil exam was like, so-so, then geog RAWKED! cant say too much bout marks, but still! it was fun! followed crys to haf lunch... smiles... then wen home straight! u noe wad? the carpark under crys hse is freaky! seriously! imagine a horror movie setting im the carpark at night, there is NO ONE THERE... no sound, exceot ur own echoing footsteps. Theres a door at the end, that has a small glass pane, it looks dark outside. When u go thru the door, there is a narrow flight of stairs leading to a landing. And then a shadow, slowly moving down the stair.... (turned out to be a cleaner) u dash for the metal gate, and find that it cant open properly...... crappy stuff, anyway wen i got home, i watched tv unti my mum got back ,then dad brought us to SMABA it a brazilian restraunt in East Coast park, next to big splash... yea, the food there is GREAT! mainly meat la, but its fantastic! Thats devs B'day treat frm dad and mum haha hes a real carnivore... well hes bugging me to get off the comp, so i guess i gtg, maybe ill update more tmr... well, Sayonara!

2006-05-04T19:39:00.000+08:00

Hey... man im totally annoyed... so sick of studying, but its not like im doing much... im sooo gonna fail ALL my exams... yeah. yesterday i din go to sch, cause i was like coughing like crazy la! yea, damn annoying. Today i went to sch, i dunno y i was so irritated wif almost eveything for the first few periods... but by recess i was ok already la... damn. During tamil my tamil teacher was being damn irritating, i bet u she wasn't even listning to the compo (that was being read out.. duh) but she was giving all these IRRELAVENT responces... yea rite, i mean only those people hu were in class wud understand rite? The the rest of the day, all we had was like Science and Math, i am so TOTALLY zonked rite now cause im doing my Geog notes... din go fer tuition... im so tired, dev is also bugging me, he keeps saying that i took his hp charger, wen i dun even use the same hp model as his....wtf... yea... CRYS! im getting worried bout u! some how must make ur brain programme to slumber mode... im damn worried bout tmr oso... bloody geog exam... aiming to take pure geog nex year... yeah and Hisory+ss, sure die... my history grades suck! i dunno y this year im doing SOO badly, even last year, crap! i dunno wanna get into a lousy stream, its so bloody annoying! EVERYTHING IS SOOOOOOOOO ANNNOYING!!!!! I HATE HAVING TO STUDY! URGH! damn it, igtg du geog now bb!

P.S: im NOT, i repeat NOT stressed up, thank you!

2006-05-02T20:17:00.000+08:00

WADS UP YEALL??? im feelin hyper... rite... haha. Guess wad? Crys and i are SUCH tattletales! yea, we told Ms Ratulangi bout a prob on our blogs... hehehe, sneaky :) i shall not say wad or hu. Yupp, haha today during our 'study' periods, Ruth, Dewi, Paula, Amelia, Crys, Natasha and i all sat together, to do wad? GOSSIP!! HAHAHA!and u noe hu the best one is? RUTH TOH!!!! seriously, nobody would expect that, but in the end, we still studied.. c? we're still good alright?!? oh yes and also BRAINY! yea... lame! yeah, so gettin back to the topic, Crys and i were talking to ms Ratulangi bout the incidents and then we all sorta drifted to another topic: Class Gathering!!!! its not confirmed, but it may b held at crys condo. Plannin on hafin a BBQ! only 2/3ians allowed!! yeah haha... OR.... even at SENTOSA! but we need more adults to come, so far only one... Ms Ratulangi!!hahahaha... well, im bored already... OHOH! guess wad? i went to the gym today... for fun this time, not cause i needed to go for another stoopid physical! hahaha.... wells, i want to go send an email to my dearest Jhansi... my cousin yea. OK BB!

2006-05-01T13:23:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl, wads up?? haha yesterday i attended my cousins wedding... actually hes my mums cousin, but hes pretty young la, haha! well, i had loads of fun wit Jhansi and Divya, though i looked damn stupid! seriously! haha anyways, the dinner reception was still the best la... Ganga, Jhans, Div, Dev n i were sitting together... THE FOOD WAS SOOOO GOOD! obviously, cause it was at the Raffles Plaza Hotel haha.. yea, Jhans n Div found an empty ballroom, and brough me and Dev there, i din wanna go cause i was too scared that we would get into trouble wif Jhansi's mom! yea... i LOVED the oysters! but nothing can beat the oysters in Freemantle!YEAH! haha, u noe wad? yesterday was the first time i ate oysters without my dad, :( anyway, after that all of us took so many pictures! it was so fun man, jhansi took a pic of me attempting suicide, fucking stoopid i tell you!

After the reception, my dad brought me, my bro and my uncle to his club... u noe wad? this was the FIRST TIME MY UNCLE STEPPED INTO A CLUB! haha then Faizal (the bartender) was like all hyper and stuff , haha! He keep bringing me all sorts of NON ALCOHOLIC cocktails.... The dev and i went to play darts wit my dad, Dev won in the end... :( haha . I wanna go watch Hogans Heros now...

OHOH! crys came to my hse today! yea! u noe wad? we actually did work noe?? haha science paper, but we haf not finished... oh wells, ill go watch Hogans Heros now, BB!

2006-04-29T20:30:00.000+08:00

HAHA! today was so damn fun!! First, i wen to crys hse in the morning, supposed to study but i ended up getting my timing mixed up and i wen to her hse like 1/2 hr late! oops, then we went straight to Potong Pasir. Followed her for Archery training! yea haha it was so fun to watch her and her two frens train... haha beginners thats y! Haha wen thome wit crys so that she cud change... then both of us went to Far East Plaza so that she cud send her top to the tailor. We had lunch at SUBWAY!!! yay! u noe wad crys spent sooo much today! i shall NOT say how much, seriously, SO MUCH! rich kidd....... haha But then our bubble was burst wen my mum called! OOPS!! haha i nearly got my ass kicked wen i got home hahaha! but i was lucky! My mum just told me off cause she was worried bout me and my up-comming exams! wtf... dumdeedum... ok thats bout it really, dunno wad else to say actually... YAH! we saw Widya and Freda at far east haha, Widya was like, "im gonna flip up ur skit!" to crys haha damn funny. Then crys went on bout the 'and i was like, yea, wadever!' thing and i ended up joining in! damn fun, well thats bout it, gtg! BB!

2006-04-28T20:48:00.000+08:00

i was like, in Toa Payoh wit Crystal, and she was like, being lame, and i was like,yea wadever!!!! HAHA! i noe tat u wunt get it... between 2/3ians ... well, Nat din come to school, she had her ballet exam and stuff :) so it was just me and crys... yah, it was pretty fun. After school i went out to haf lunch with crys and her friend Hui Fen.. fun man, haha crystal made this up :" I was like, in Popular, and this woman like pushed me, and i was like, wadever!!!". That song is damn funny! haha, i had just heard it the day b4, then the very next day, Constance's group used it for their EP project! haha so coincidental rite? well, stuff happens!
Tmr, im going to crys hse to study, then im going to follow her to PPCC for her archery training! so fun, then i guess we will be going back to her hse to study again then go to Orchard, and look for THAT shop! Only the both of us noe WAD shop it is! rite crys?? haha yea... and ur like, WADEVER!!! rite? yea...so fun, then on monday sh eis comming to my HSE!! yes, yes we r nerds, well not as bad as SOME ppl, hu also double as Jap Porn stars! anyway, im so tired i went to see the doctor, then he asked me to do a physical.. he said that im exerting too much energy on myself, and i haf to stop physical activity for now, sighs, that means tt mr Law will fail me for PFT, :(((( she said that if i cant du PFT by this week, then she will fail me, sighs, but i got doctors letter! shud be VR, not fail rite? ok, i want to go haf a bath and sleep... gd nite!

2006-04-26T14:50:00.000+08:00

Hey, wads up?? im so fucking screwed, my history was totally crap... i din even study the day b4, i was just tired, most of my work was guessed, im just hoping that i won't fail... at least a pass, then i gtg prepare for my exams which are only next week friday, and the week after...OHOH! nex week friday is devs b'day! omg, april and may... so many b'days like 1 or 2 weeks apart, first, is Jhansi, then lyon, then sathish, then dev!!! urgh, im already broke... :( well? wad to do? haha, OMG! today AGAIN that bitch pissed me off during science, she thinks shes fucking smart... bloody hell, she needs to go get a bloody life man!!! wads her prob? i just told her to like du the practical properly, and she got all , " I NOE !!!" if u noe? then y din u du it properly in the first place??? smart ass.. bitchy....

at least there is no exams tmr! no need to study, cause there r no exams tmr!!! yeah man, finally, but i got tuition... crap, i hate going fer tuition, well anyway, it dun matter i gtg already... BB

2006-04-25T17:05:00.000+08:00

I dunno y, but im just so annoyed... seriously, evertime my dad gets home, he annoys me like crazy!!! i mean, i just wanted to watch one tv show and he kept asking me to change the channel! said tat the show i was watching was testing his inteligence... for crying out loud man, leave me alone. Then i had to tell them bout my freakin exam, the bloody thing was just so bad, i think i did really horrible, i mean my compo was crap, then my compre was so badly done! i only wrote like 91 words for my summary, and in that 1h40mins, i slept for 40mins, and stared into space for like 15mins??? wtf... im so damn bloody annoyed by HER as well, shes really trying to act cool! wad the hell? her belt was like bloody low, and her fringe was literally covering her whole face, its quite hard to tell if she even noes where she is going. She thinks she's sooooo cool... man i just want to slap her damn face, oh yes she also thinks that she's fucking pretty. wad the? she goes on bout how this guy has a crush on her and how he gags and drools at her... i mean tat guy is DAMN deaprate, so so very desprate to be going after her. Yah ok i admit she is smart, but pls, she has no looks! not tat im saying mine are good, but for petes sake look at her and u will noe wad the hell im talking bout!!!!!

Shit tmr's history test... so gonna die.... die die die. my marks cant get any worse. i mean, i bet i wount get anymore that a b4 for english, then my history? how? tamil no need to say. geog, dun even understand wad the fuck the teacher is saying 100% of the time then science i dun understand the bloody chapters and then Maths, i dun even practice on one single day, dun even du the homework... im so dead, this year summore is my streaming year, im so gonna do badly la.... i dun even study, everyday just go home and watch tv or go online.. thats all... annoyed annoyed, wad to do? anyway, igtg put somthing into my numb skull b4 tmrs exam , BB

2006-04-24T20:40:00.000+08:00

Heyy im on the fone wiy crys... damn tired, tmr i haf my bloody english exam. URGH! crys's hand is swollen.. how? damn bloody bored!!! oh yess, today i went to toa payoh central wit crys... as usual and bought b'day presents for sathish and leon... :) then we walked home, after tat i met up wit sathish to pass him the presents for leon and himself :D yay! i got him a cookie, and crys got him a card... haha, i even got a dev a card... then i had luch wit crys... haha so many things happening. well i dunno wad to say im getting tired, got to study for history...bloody hell im gonna like fail all my exams la... no doubt, my parents are going to KILL me... gonna die, lol, well i gtg post another time :)))) BB!!